isnin, weekdays, dulu & sekarang

duh..ni la gejala hari isnin..pening....mau termuntah aku memandang pc ni...memandang file dan drawing di atas meja, menambahkan lagi mual ku...

maybe i am too sleepy kot..ya...lagipun pertukaran angin ahad ke angin isnin bisa menghasilkan ribut yang terasa di kepala dan mataku yang terasa seperti disapukan dengan gam UHU ni...

bukan aku malas bekerja..tapi kepala ni yang sakit...semacam..dua tiga macam sahaja...bagaimana untuk menghilangkan rasa ini....aku memilih untuk mem-blog...mungkin bisa menghilangkan sedikit rasa mual akibat ribut pertukaran angin ni...

perkara sebegini yang membuat aku rindu gila masa study...kelas 3, 4 jam sehari..boleh tidur bila-bila masa..tidak perlu tunggu weekend untuk berehat, weekdays pun terasa lapangnya...kalau ikutkan mata yang terkena gam UHU, tak payah pergi kelas..tidur saja di rumah...boleh minta pertolongan rakan-rakan yang baik untuk signkan attendance..ko sign kan aku..nanti2 ko ponteng, aku sign kan la untuk ko...sampai la tahap, x nampak member tu kat class, trus tolong sign, tanpa menunggu arahan dari si penama yang tidak hadir...sampai la tahap, si yang tidak hadir tu sebenarnya sakit di hospital dan mendapat sick leave pun, bukan sengaja ingin ponteng, tapi si rakan yg baik hati trus saja signkan kedatangannya...

ataupun, pergi kelas...bila rasa mengantuk..keluar la..pergi toilet ke, smoke.tu ok lagi...kadang-kadang keluar gi cafe..then tak masuk2 semula ke kelas..suruh member yg duduk dekat2 tolong bawak balik buku or beg..kan senang gitu...rasa mengantuk je, rasa mata terkena gam UHU je..trus pi layan teh ais kat cafe..siap makan nasi lemak dengan sambal sotong, kalau time2 clas pagi..kalau petang2 tu...bleh layan kepok lekor ke, pisang goreng ke...klu masa dah nak dekat lunch, blah awal dari clas, trus pi lunch..ah! indahnya masa tu...

dulu....
pernah sekali, aku, nije, najib, ali (ini geng lambat gi class..geng ponteng..tapi baik hati..ahaks) keluar dari class untuk breakfast...mengantuk sangat pagi tu..dorg ni pula datang lmbat..class sudah start 30minit, dorang baru sampai
"ko cinoi..kitorg dh la baru dtg,..br duduk dah ajak jom breakfast..gilo"
tapi on the way aku ke pintu class, mereka folo jugak...pekena nasi goreng ngan ayam goreng tepung...sudah kenyang. kami pun balik ke class..dengan muka selamba kenyang masuk terus...aik, terasa lain semacam..lecturer pun sudah bertukar baju, cepatnya dia gi tukar baju..wajahnya pun sudah sedikit berubah daripada sebelum aku breakfast tadi..owh mungkin sebab tadi aku berasa sangat lapar dan mengantuk lalu hilang fokus sehingga tidak perasaan rupa lecturer tersebut yang sebenar, sekarang pula aku memandangnya dalam keadaan aku yang sedang kenyang kan...tapi apabila melihat sekeliling, clasmate pun semua bertukar wajah..apakah..damn! rupanya class ku sudah berpindah ke bilik lain..mereka yang ada di dalam tu sama sekali bukan classmate ku...adoyai...terus keluar semula tanpa rasa bersalah..dan pusing mencari di mana bilik kuliah yang sebenar..nasib baik rakan yang sudah expert dengan keadaan itu membantu untuk membawa keluar buku dan barang2 kami dari class yang 1st tadi ke bilik kuliah yang baru...

apa pun, mengantukku pergi..dan perutku senang hati..


sekarang....
di tempat kerja..8jam sehari..pintu bilik bos bergaris lurus ke meja ku...bagaimana bisa aku mengatasi kemengantukkan yang amat ni...sampai sakit kepala otak aku yang sederhana besar ni...

Ya Allah..berikanlah hambamu ini kekuatan..hati dan mata...

this past 10 years

Sitting here makes me think about my past 10 years...

ok..lets start when i was 12....i got an excellent result in UPSR..and offered to a boarding school 2 and a half hours away from home....when i received the offer, i was already a month in a chinese secondary school...when i ask mummy and daddy should i accept the offer or not, daddy ask me to decide it myself....so i said, i wanted to give it a try....still remember daddy said "ok but no turning back" at that time i was thinking, why would i want to turn back, boarding school must be great..

naahhh..there u go..masuk la boarding school..and surprisingly for me, unsurprisingly for my family, i cried the whole 1st week at the boarding school...i got a hot fever...i felt like dying there, missed home damn crazy much..the hostel has a big problem with water supply, selalu tiada air..aiya...and the hostel building n room, at that time, was so buruk, macam haunted je..the food at the dining hall, erk...tasteless...i always miss home, no tv, no delicious food, nothing..so then i understand why he said no turning back..and i went home on the first weekend(balik bermalam)..but am afraid to tell my dad i wanted to quit...

but i think, that is the last time, for this past 10 years, that i missed , really missed home, like crazy...

i had my 1st bf when i was in Form 2, school netball player since form 2 until form 5, school high jumper, melompat-tinggi sampai state level , 1st smoke also when i was in form 2..
kantoi dating, tindakan disiplin, tidur di hostel or sick bay time skolah or prep class...fly...outing without permission..melawan cikgu...and for the record, i start doing my prepare class di bilik guru disiplin since i was in form 1, when the other student in there was a form 3 n 4 student....very the nakal kan...les just say i start my life there...

i finished my 5years there, with trillions memories that wont fade away, with ups n downs...i made it...

with my spm result, got offered to go the the matriculation in Labuan..again, i left home...from my place i had to take 2 flight to reach Labuan, sandakan-kk, kk-labuan....
1 year in Labuan was hell honeymoon-enjoyable-crazy-lunatic year we've been through..me n my frens from boarding school get along very well together..we had an every-weekend-crazy activities..lagipun everything is cheaper in Labuan...saya jarang sekali balik ke kampung, hari raya aidiladha pun i stayed in Labuan...we overnight at the hotel apartment in town, almost every week..xtau bila masa study..haih...luckily, i passed...the matriculation...ffuhhh...

but i didnt stay home for long, i was offered to go to UTHM, formerly known as KUITTHO in batu pahat..hmmm....aku berpergian lagi...this time for 4 years.this time around, i only went home for hari raya aidilfitri..ouwh, ada 1 raya i tidak balik, 2005, i celebrated raya in batu pahat...the mid-sem break, sem break, and other holiday i spent in semenanjung, sometimes at my aunt's place in kl, sometimes at my sis place in kuantan.sometimes i travel around, usually for the sport i played....there are more shit, great, fun things happened during this 4 years......i even had a semester without loan because of the below 2 pointer..sux..luckily (i always need luck), i managed to grad on time....

i finished my final semester in MAY, but only went home in sandakan, in august....

ok..lets sum it up

5 years boarding school + 1 year matriculation + 4 years in U + not going back for holiday = ??

how many days i was home for this past 10 years??

n not just that, i went home at the end of august, i wast there during the fasting month september, and 6 days of hari raya, and now i am here in KK, 6hours from sandakan...in front of my pc at the office, waiting for the break (can't wait) ...*sleepy and bored*

happy birthday daddy

happy 59th birthday daddy!!!

semoga daddy panjang umur, murah rezeki, bertambah cucu, bertambah menantu cepat-cepat..hehehe..n projek masyuk....

raya ke-7

this is my 1st hari raya with my blog...tapi tiada pun entry raya...

my hari raya went well...tapi duit raya dapat sikit jak...tu pon nasib bek dapat...dari 4org kakak n daddy..uncle2 n aunty2 dah x bagi dah...

n 1 lagi, semua adik beradik berkumpul di raya pertama, kecuali my younger-bro yang be raya di kampung wife dia.......

di pagi raya, selepas sembahyang raya (which i didnt go), selepas bacaan doa d rumah, n selepas bersalaman........

daddy panggil cucu-cucu "mari sini semua..cucu atok.."

hikhik...aku pon masuk dalam barisan ..belakang sekali...sebab aku ni aunty kepada cucu-cucu daddy...

bila daddy terpandang aku di barisan belakang sekali,

daddy pon cakap kt mummy "hmm..pegila ambik satu lagi sampul kat atas..untuk noi"

wah...mekaseh...

lepas daddy bagi, aku pon terus la gi kat 4 org kakakku....dapat jugak...yeay!!!

oleh kerana ini tahun terakhir aku dapat duit raya, sehingga hari ini duit raya tu masih lagi dalam sampul raya tersebut..sayang...sepp....

p/s-sory..entry ni langsung tiada kaitan dengan tajuk "RAYA KE-7" tu....raya ke-7 aku di ofis...

where have i been??

25th aug - convocation

26th aug - flight Kl - sandakan

1st sept - puasa oh puasa

21st sept - 6hours journey, from sandakan to KK plus accident..huhuhu

22nd sept - job interview, 1st time..ngehehe ( KK)

30th sept - 6hours journey (KK to sandakan)

1st oct - yeah!! raya

5th oct - 6 hours journey (sandakan to KK)

6th oct - 1st day at work..adoyai...in KK...im at the office...still blur...ngehehe....


there u go...a short update from me..wait for more ok....there's nothing much on my 1st day, thats why i managed to blog...la..la..la...


selamat hari raya aidilfitri

What i want in my life....?

i am now getting slow here...
still figuring things...
trying to sort things right...
and thinking what actually i want in my life...
we thought we have everything,
when actually its all just an excuses
like he said,
life is just not only about graduation day,
there are more in it....



i am still planning things..
and its not all bout me
i am considering all the dear people in my life,
my family n him



what i want in my life?
i think i just can't be,
the girl that i wish was me

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broadcasting live from sabah

yeah..i am blogging live from sabah...
ya..i know..its been a long while since i last updated my blog...
haih..so sad..i have no internet connections at home..

even now i online via wi-fi kat 'starbucks' near my place okeh...

aduh..sorry la...nanti if the time comes..my life in blog sphere will back to normal...sekarang bukan masanya lagi....

ok...tunggu tau...i'll be back...
yeah..i will!!!